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The Dykes of Hazzard will premiere on Monday April 3rd at 18:30 in a programme called "How the West was won" in NFT3. Not the biggest of cinemas - will there be room for anyone not actually in the film?

Still, let's dress up and make a night of it!
8th-Feb-2006 02:31 pm - Maybe I can learn?
It wasn't fair to say I'm not all that keen on Sebastian. The truth is that I do not understand. I don't get it. Um.
3rd-Feb-2006 12:58 pm - boring colour scheme
duck, goom
That's the default colour. Is it boring and IT-ish enough?
2nd-Feb-2006 04:05 pm - fancy a jaunt..
round the perv shops and gay bars of Soho dropping off some flyers this evening?
1st-Feb-2006 10:28 am - test
duck, goom
Want to see if I succeeded in entering a thingumabob in the LJ command console and making this community automatically friends-only. This is a test.

I feel lobotomised (though that's nothing to do with LJ and everything to do with my cold).
31st-Jan-2006 05:02 pm - Making johnnymad friends only
duck, goom
D'you think it should be friends only? Or just let it all hang out?
31st-Jan-2006 01:09 pm - a mission for badass
What about, Drel, we send badass into "the other place" with an assumed identity and a license to cause trouble?
30th-Jan-2006 03:42 pm - hormonal observations
I've been thinking about stone butches of late, my own relationship to "stone" (not being touched sexually) and how that has changed with hormonal changes. Ok, so when I first started shagging girls, I was definitely the "do-er". I wasn't into being fucked at all, or even touched there particularly. I relaxed a lot over the years but I was still always the one that started it off. It was sort of like my bits were an afterthought.

Then testosterone came along. Pretty much over night I changed. I suddenly really couldn't see the point of using a dildo. It didn't make sense anymore. I couldn't feel it! I wanted a cock, not some bit of silicone! Fucking someone was just a means to an end, I wanted my giblét sucked. Fucking men suddenly made sense for the first time in my life because, I realised, they could take care of their own orgasms. There wouldn't be that time when I had to think about anyone but myself and my own incrediable horn. Sometimes I found fucking stopped making sense altogether and I jsut wanted to wank and get off. This didn't, as you can imagine, make me a very sensitive lover.

Other changes. I could fancy women I'd never met. People off the telly, films, Buffy.. I could wank just at the thought of fucking them with a cock. No scenarios, no build up, no story. Just thinking about fucking.

Now I've been off testosterone for over two years and I'm somewhere in the middle. I can pretty much come from fucking with a dildo again, it makes sense to me. My own bits are fun, but don't get me off as much as making someone else come does. I don't fancy anonymous women anymore but do tend to "fall in love" ridiculously easily. In fact, my fantasies tend to be embarrassingly romantic and elaborate rather than just thinking of a physical act.

So what of this? I dunno. I just wanted to right down the differences because I don't know anyone else similar.
30th-Jan-2006 03:47 pm(no subject)
duck, goom
*offers fag to TCB*
30th-Jan-2006 03:31 pm - johnnymad completes the triangle.
welcome third side of the triangle, Miss TCB!
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