I've been thinking about stone butches of late, my own relationship to "stone" (not being touched sexually) and how that has changed with hormonal changes. Ok, so when I first started shagging girls, I was definitely the "do-er". I wasn't into being fucked at all, or even touched there particularly. I relaxed a lot over the years but I was still always the one that started it off. It was sort of like my bits were an afterthought.
Then testosterone came along. Pretty much over night I changed. I suddenly really couldn't see the point of using a dildo. It didn't make sense anymore. I couldn't feel it! I wanted a cock, not some bit of silicone! Fucking someone was just a means to an end, I wanted my giblét sucked. Fucking men suddenly made sense for the first time in my life because, I realised, they could take care of their own orgasms. There wouldn't be that time when I had to think about anyone but myself and my own incrediable horn. Sometimes I found fucking stopped making sense altogether and I jsut wanted to wank and get off. This didn't, as you can imagine, make me a very sensitive lover.
Other changes. I could fancy women I'd never met. People off the telly, films, Buffy.. I could wank just at the thought of fucking them with a cock. No scenarios, no build up, no story. Just thinking about fucking.
Now I've been off testosterone for over two years and I'm somewhere in the middle. I can pretty much come from fucking with a dildo again, it makes sense to me. My own bits are fun, but don't get me off as much as making someone else come does. I don't fancy anonymous women anymore but do tend to "fall in love" ridiculously easily. In fact, my fantasies tend to be embarrassingly romantic and elaborate rather than just thinking of a physical act.
So what of this? I dunno. I just wanted to right down the differences because I don't know anyone else similar.